It Tastes so Bitter

Losing sucks. There's no other way to put it. When I don't win (whether it's a team game or individual) I immediately do a self analysis of what I could have done differently/ better to change the outcome. If I felt that I played a part in the loss, I'll go through phases of guilt, disappointment, frustration, and eventually settle on sadness. Usually this starts and finishes within a couple hours depending on how important the game was to me. (Losing a pickup ultimate game I'll get over it within a couple minutes vs. losing in the finals of flag football on a technicality will stay with me for a couple days)

The worst thing is when you participate in something on a regular basis and lose every single time. When you lose in one time events, you can always justify it with "Oh the other person just got lucky", or "I'll get them the next time". When you lose consecutive years even when the odds should be in your favor, you can't really use those excuses anymore.

Ever since my freshman year in HMCC, H-Games has always been something I looked forward to because it was so exciting to see all the small groups pumped up and decked out in brand new t-shirts. I am a firm believer that groups always get close after working together on a similar goal, and H-Games provides that spark to get people interacting.

My personal enthusiasm and desire to win were never enough to bring me the ultimate joy of being immortalized in the annals of H-Games Winners. All through undergrad, I would lose and have to watch the FOCUS groups celebrate their domination of H-Games. In my head I would just tell myself, "Just wait until you get to join them, then you'll finally win." HA! Fate was cruel because when I joined FOCUS, the games miraculously changed from being games of athleticism to games that can only be described as random. After trying to figure out why FOCUS lost for the first time in years, I happened to overhear someone talking about it and they mentioned how they specifically changed the games so that the undergrad groups would have a chance. Three years of FOCUS, three more years of defeat and I lost all hope of notching an H-Games victory before I left AA.

That was until I made the decision to come to Austin. The stage could not be any more ready for me to win my FIRST H-Games EVER. Literally, the odds were 50-50 here because we only have two lifegroups! I'm not going to go into details, but long story short, our team got crushed. It literally took until today (over a week and a half later) to be able to blog about it. The loss still leaves a nasty taste in my mouth, but at least we got to see a bunch of friends come out and enjoy themselves.

Team L7Fav pic of the day