Losing Touch

Originally I had looked forward to the summer because I thought it would mean I had more time to write and blog, but I had failed to take into account my laziness. I had read an article months ago about how the internet was causing us (society) to become stupid. My first impression was disdain; how could the internet be considered stupid when there are so many advantages to having it?

However, as I started noticing my own deficiencies in memory and attention span, I think the article starting ringing true for me. Case in point, I had started a blog about why guys are so attracted to war movies in December, but the moment it required planning, I immediately got distracted and just saved it in my "Drafts" to rot.

I'm not blaming the internet for my own personal jump in ADD, but I do notice a loosening in my own resolve to never lose touch with those people I really value in my life. You know the feeling of "I-don't-know-what-to-talk-about" with an old friend you hadn't seen in years? It's not because you guys don't have any interesting things, it's just hard to bring up things that you think they would be able to appreciate/care about. If you haven't, then maybe I just suck and it's just me. But whatever.

For me, I could care less about how many friends I make. Instead, I really believe in having those trusted few: the inner circle, if you will. I've always envisioned that when I was an "adult" and working, we would live in the same city and after work we would hang out like on Friends, doing stupid things together. Life definitely does not work out like that. People move. People change. Sometimes, people just plain forget.

I think I'm at the point I was at a couple years ago, when I was really struggling with figuring how what true "friendship" was. Emo and stupid? Yeah, maybe, but I think it's something everyone needs to wrestle through. It's funny to think back at how upset I was at people back then, and seeing how I'm starting to do some of the same things as them.

I think this line from Mat Kearney's "On & On" sums it up perfectly.

"Nothing worth anything ever goes down easy."