Sleepless Night

Lots on my mind tonight. Rain all day and night. Flooded sidewalks. Can't sleep. When I close my eyes I feel like my brain is whirling around at 100 mph. Nights like this I truly appreciate being able to give up all my burdens to God. It's been a long time since I've been so overwhelmed and unable to help. I keep seeing myself on a ship with giant gaping holes and cold, dark water rushing in and I'm trying in vain to plug up the holes with anything I can find. No matter how hard I try and whatever progress I make in one area, another hole opens up somewhere else. As the water rises, it gets so cold, and I get more numb and frustrated at my inability to fix the situation. Seems like God is trying to drill home this lesson to me this year. Let go of control. Let go. Let go. Trust in My plans. Your attempts at helping are noble, but I am the Healer, the Redeemer, not you.

Sometimes it takes nights where you just throw up your hands in frustration to gain the right perspective.

And I’m amazed by You. Cause You’re never far away
And all that I’ve been through, Your love has never changed

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You make oceans from the rain
Breathing life into this place
And I will drown inside your love
Until I see your perfect face
And nothing I’ve acquired means anything at all
Cause you’re everything I needed
You’re so much more than I deserve
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And I thank you Lord (repeat 4 times)
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The blood of Jesus can wash your pain away
Seventh Day Slumber- Oceans from the Rain